Thoughts before going to bed
Why do I care? Every time I turn off my computer at almost midnight; in less than six hours before the alarm clock will harass me again I keep asking myself. Why do I hit the button to refresh the news feed like a slot machine? Am I Reuters agency to try to learn any piece of news in hurry? Why do I open Reddit again and drool on my keyboard while scrolling memes or inconsistent wordy posts on antiai, nosurf and singularity? It doesn't benefit me. And I often can't remember what I have just read. My eBook went cold long ago. I didn't continue to read that novel.
Every time I lay in the dark and try to sleep I scourge myself I wasted another evening away. Every next day the moment I come back from work I turn on my enslaving machine and give away hours of my life.
I will try again to stop this. No pretentious promises. I just miss real life with normal attention span, memory and ability to enjoy moments without screen.