Thank you very March
My cousin is going to celebrate her 30th birthday on March 18. Because of that I made a layout of a small magazine with stickers. There are three sections, each one has places for six archive photos from her life. In total we get her birthday date: 18.03 (I hope this idea doesn't get lost in my English). More of that the pages are of different length, the first one the shortest. On the sides of the page there are 2006, 2016, 2026, each opening another decade of her life. I hope she'll like my present, or at least won't cringe too much. Back in the day I liked DIY presents, when I was inventing the concepts on my own and addressing external people only to make the idea physical (like copy centre in this case).
I fell sick and right now I am indifferent to the world. Yet my Russian fellows did drag me into politics asking me what's the difference between, ahem, their story and what USA is doing. Instead of digging into empty philosophy I feel sorry to Iranians. I wonder is this fact nurtured by the fact I spent time before to get to know them just a little. How many of my pity results from the fact a certain group of people isn't totally foreign/strange/alien (I don't know what fits here better). What a weird time to live. When I was a child I felt the world I witnessed was fixed forever and will remain like it was in early 2000s. Nothing is fixed as I see now.
I told my father I am too tired of working with people. It's weird as at the same time I whine about not having 'friends'. Nobody tells 30 is lonely. But I am tired of a special scheme of interaction, to be of somebody's service, especially in the education system, God bless this mess. When my father asked me what my dream job would be right now I answered I'd like to become librarian. This answer felt natural. My grandmother who worked as a school librarian got me accustomed to piles of books (since she's Russian I mastered the language). I've been working as editor in different organisations since 2019. I mean, this medium, the book, never left me completely. I don't seek career. I just want to have enough money to live and not burn out everyday.