Oh, the misery
I broke my own promise to stay clean from topics that have nothing to do with my life. I will try again then. I don't know why I had such determination to post a wall of text about orthography yesterday. This morning when I reread it the post felt more like an attempt to promote something I don't know why. Did I try to show off as a 'person dedicated to national things'? Did I seek a chance to boast about my presumptuous intelligence? Either way I don't need a public essay to think, do and stick with what I feel is right.
The fact that nobody writes in messengers starts to feel good actually because it frees me from the need to stay hooked on tech. I am about to end this post, turn off the computer and continue to listen to the audiobook I began. The sun is shining brightly, the sky is clear and pristine. Real life feels so good. Just getting comfortable and enjoy the detective unfold.
My hand reaches to the phone out of pure instinct. I need to check news feed. Telegram. Instagram. Reddit. To stay updated This is nonsense! If somebody messages a notification will pop up on the screen, that's it. Eventually I'll read them. News? Once a day is enough. Reddit? This cesspool is long time useless. I believe if I scroll for hours and glance over post titles I'll learn something new? Pft.
Still I like reading posts here. They are written for the authors themselves and feel sincere. They don't try to lecture me, convince or manipulate. It's refreshing.
Where are my headphones?