On this site my nickname is Ascara [æskə'rɑ]. Pleased to meet you.
I (M29) live in a post-Soviet country and I am mostly okay with the way my life goes. What I lack(ed?) is the chance to speak out openly without the risk of being misunderstood again. I don't have any special traits that put me in confrontation with society. I just feel what we all met once at least. I mean the need to wear a mask and strictly follow your role. Being open leads to being judged or mistreated. I try to keep playing an adult, and yet my mindset is rather delicate. Instead of demanding others to bend to my unrealistic worldview I sought a safe place to vent about things and thingies. I am proud to say I outgrew the nerdy compulsion to correct others or teach them when they don't ask. My pleasure doesn't go away simply because I didn't shower someone else with facts without their consent.
Besides my national language I speak English, French, Russian and Persian (on different levels obviously but I can express myself without a dictionary). None of my gadgets are set in my mother tongue. I push myself to keep in form what I've learnt with such pain.
I used to make up my conlang which is even mentioned on omniglot.com. It was a stone axe level tool to cipher most cringey parts of my paper diaries. But eventually I focused on learning natural languages.
I am sentimental and can go blue because of simple things like watching food going cold as no one took it. You get the level, right? But in real life I don't have the luxury to express my emotions. The song 'Être à la hauteur' from the musical 'Roi soleil' puts nicely what I am talking about. Surely, my case isn't that epic.
I adore history. I read both fiction and serious works as whatever is now at breaking news is the direct fruit of what has already happened. To learn history even at amateurish level means grasping the plot of the series we are all part of the cast.
I don't like films as a medium. I'm a text person (both paper and audiobooks are fine), a listener of voices. Of all the traits the human's voice is one of my core attractions. Did you hear Cheshire cat from an old 2000 game?
I like to listen to games OSTs. They offer a good blanket to make an atmosphere loaded with emotions of memories. As for artists, I am fond of And One, La Femme, Lemon Demon, Ravanna, polnalyubvi.
Among the games that shaped my aesthetics are 'American Mcgee's Alice' (the 1st part), 'Cry of fear' and 'Silent hill' (both mostly for the music), 'Vampires the masquerade', 'The beginner's guide', 'Critters for sale', 'Battle realms', 'World of goo' and 'Sonic heroes'. As for now I don't play anymore. There are several youtubers whose walkthroughs I watch occasionally.